Friday, December 26, 2008


this is kinda a pretty color isnt it???? ; ] babes knows whats good! its all 4 you- only u 2 c.



  1. your eyes
  2. your hands
  3. your mind
  4. your smile
  5. your "i"

my book finally reached at barnes and nobles! tomorrow 1st thing when i wake up, im going to go get it! i have studying to do also----------------------------------------------------------------

i cant wait to see my babes again. xoxoxoxxoo

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Strike a pose OHmy.

you can take the girl outta the fashion captial- but you cant take the fashion outta the girl.
last night i was cooling with Bridget- looking like a crazy lady eating mad food walking threw good'old coral square. Ive noticed the eyes- yet it doesnt even get to me. Its simply in my nature to walk and demand. I did my nails so crazy- i mixed the crazyiest colors when i got home! ill up date that and some new hair products i got! im outty for the Holidays in MIAMI with my hubby.
free your mind- OF ALL CHAINS.
thats what they want you to trust.
stop being a ROBOT- and wake up.
xoxoxxo OHmy BubbleGUM deluxxx
why coke deluxxx?
COKEdeluxx is a coke float from ATL at my fav icecream shop- be easy.
CHINX && CHOPstix always & 4ever

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Ladies you gotta show your king mad love for the Holidays!

I bought some knee high fishnets, and i bought some black silk ribbon ; ]
Im gonna make a mix CD and buy a bottle ... if anyone has any other ideals please lemme know =]

Blown out the badu fro- dont worry its not really that dark. the lighting is just really low..

"i love you love, your my wife! muha- muha muha"


FLY TOGETHER. Trey Songz feat Jimmy.

maybe its the dude, maybe its the cool maybe its my shoes, call em 22's baby its ya phase, baby its ya face, baby its ya smile make me wonder how you taste, maybe cause the thugs say that I'm cool, maybe cause the girls wanna be like you, maybe its the ice that made
ya look twice, maybe its ya back that made me look back, baby i look good with you, you know that you look good with me too, let me ride through the hood with you, show you to my boys cause oooh ooh you

you so fly, I'm so fly, whats more fly than you and I together, get high lets fly together, I'm so fly, you so fly, whats more fly than you and i together, get high lets fly together

Maybe take a cruise, sail across seas, we can never lose, baby not we, we can be the two true life of the party, baby what it do you know that you want me, maybe its the feel that i like you, got a nigga feel he can wife you, maybe its the fit that made me look slick, baby you the pick i make you my chick baby i look good with you, she know that you look good with me too, let me ride through the hood with you, show you to my boys cause ooh ooh you,

whats more fly than you and I together, get high lets fly together, I'm so fly, you so fly, whats more fly than you and i together, get high lets fly together

Baby don't, don't you take too long, i want you in my arms, if you feel what i feel bring it here to me c'mon see we young but girl we grown, and baby i want to grow old, with you cause you know that you soo

maybe its ya attitude that makes me a little mad at you, the same time the gratitude that make one spend cash on you, take you on trips you caught the longitude and latitude, let you hold the whip last time we almost crashed the coupe, so i laughed at you, cause we was drop pissy, it was 2 summers ago and you still rollin' wit me, but maybe its the loyalty, the way that you callin' me, when we makin' love when you scream put it all on me, or maybe my physique and my upcoming from the streets, i keep you running back, i got you coming in the sheets, from the first time i met you you become a little freak, i might go downtown and get something to eat, and baby you took care of me baby i took care of you, you cry I cry, baby i should tears for two, baby if the 7 karats didn't cost 300 grand, i would had the table and put some ice in ya hand

you so fly, I'm so fly, whats more fly than you and I together, get high lets fly together, baby can we fly together, I'm so fly, you so fly, whats more fly than you and i together, get high lets fly together

False Hoods.

if this isnt real- save me.
dont make me in grave my skin with your name- if you arent for me.
love me? love me! love me..

where is all of this coming from- im shaking.
Peaceful in this blissful mind state- i control my emotions.
what is that- who is that, nope not my man.
those words had to be said before we reunited- i keep my pressure low...
i was here to help you weather the storm..that shit is OVER.

simply your sunshine, love spots- you told me those bitches dont matter.


you told me that im yours and your mine- and your locking me down,
and i must come back around..

you told me that im your equal- for i know the truth...

you told me that- that shit isnt yours..

ive been popping gum, with my arms crossed..


ive been standing there with a attitude in my voice, addicted to retail-
ive been standing there when i decided to paint on canvas-
ive been standing there when i moved to nyc- and you moved to BK.
ive been standing there- when you went through some issues, and i was there-
to listen and talk to you.
ive been standing there when i seen you fighting yourself.
ive been standing there mentally holding your hand.

while youve been standing here- making me expand my mind, and open my eyes.

praying on my knees- writing down blessing for you on paper.
i got the notebooks- i got photos- i must be her.

do not lie to me-
for this love has bought a decent piece of land on my heart.
i cannot take the deception.

if it is with her- go.

who am i to judge.


"those bitches dont mean shit"


ive never chased- borrowed or stole love.

you know where to find me in the dawn
and in the night-

Saturday, December 20, 2008

not to bee rude....


every girl should sleep in polo crew shirts- soo comfy and they match your mates boxers !!

keep this in mind for thee site.


recently, ive been on the ultimate grind. Doing hair, selling phones, working- studying...and painting! Everything is so crazy- yet i love it! Ive been praying for windows to open up and the room is mighty breezy. Im super sleepy- and i have a painting to do sell tomorrow lol! I completely put it on the back burner. I feel as if im wearing myself out- then again i just kinda pat my head and close my eyes... and envision my main goal...say to myself focus focus!! Its only natural for people to stare, talk shit and laugh off'ah greatness. My cousin Sean is starting up a blog- im in on it, ill be in charge of the art- and fashion! another project to add on the long list growing- not to mention my search for knowledge. Ive finished reading a wonderful book, my eyes are open wider. I feel pity for people who are so caught up into this material world, they all need to wake up. Yet they cant even get pass there emotions- instead letting there emotions control them. Smh.

ive finally found the perfect quote that i will get on my right arm. its so beautiful! Im not gonna use black ink- im really thinking about Tiffanys Blue. hm... so jamming Bjork right now. I have no ideal where i will officially call my home- i dont know if i should go back to NYC or move to South Beach...all i do know is art school is popping for fall. I shall take over the world. Im taking a trip out west, to check out some schools! who knows? The great artist, must grow and experience life from every side of the fence! yes!
peace and blessings.
yes- lets all join hands and open our eyes.
let us all realize we are only objects- our souls infinite let us free our minds.
my soul- my spirit- my body, let us all realize-
life is ours for the taking, we must love one another not fuss and fight.
love must be used understood and respected-
love is key for the world.
we are only killing ourselves.
we project thoughts and actions that are contradicting ourselves.
Im only an artist- in every shape and form, with my words, with my brushes,with my pencils with my pens- with my body- with my eyes, i see beauty in everything living and nonliving thing. even tho- we are all living..everything is matter.
the universe is mental.
my energy is radiant- i shine golds and yellows. for im thee lion im in full control-
let us all bow our heads and hold hands.
let us all put away the bullshit and wake up.
who cares-
who cares-
what does life mean to you-
and why must you appeal to the masses.
i respect those who feel they understand when they dont even know...
i beg and pray for you- come out of your comfort zone, read a real book, that doesn't talk about
"fucking him in the shower- my body rocked.. i felt every inch of me in a state of bliss- as i tasted him, feeling him go down my body made me filled with love."
fuck that.
fuck those Dirty books that only morph our little queens to suck a mean dick.
im simply- a truth seeker- and im projecting that im the leader.
not to sound like everybody trying so hard to be artsy just to fit in.
meaning it-
who are you- what do you see.. what do you feel..
tell me what is real.

not to bee rude- lol yeah.. im kinda a beautiful person. lets leave it at that.
much love. KISSES.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Rasta Nuh'live dem ways.

big tune:
this is the last blog before the site =]
im getting photos together now and writing my bio =]
im really excited.

Friday, December 5, 2008

yoda bitch

as i sit and ponder about everything- i feel it is time to once again spread my wings.
the long search for love and stability continues as my journey begins.
voices are constantly growing as i fly back and forth and around- finding new muses..
finding new hope...finding new peace of mind that always gets ruined.
Ive figured it out today while playing in my spinach salad- how can i expect others to give me
what i wont give to strangers? Ive broke down mentally, and picked each part of my brain apart. this isnt right- this isnt love.
ive contradict my every thought, with my actions and bashed myself for what i cannot help.
you've grew me into this person- this feather that just sways and flops.
you've never told me about life,
youve never told me my worth-
youve watched me tarnished it - than hide it- than lock it up than find it..polish it and fly.
youve never been there as you should of- im sick of wondering why. yes you say this and you say that- if you break it down who is to blame. im mealy a mirror image of what ive seen all my life- you, your inner self you hide so much. the woman who once wanted to paint and draw, and wear her hair wild. it kills you to see me, living and being just who you wanted. i refuse to ever conform into you- i shall follow my heart.
as i go.
the wind blows north.
honestly - frankly im sick of the lies.
im simply a young girl searching for her family, i want in on my cold blooded Chinese Jamaican roots, i want to be apart of the chin clan like i once was. why must me - being this person keep me from this circle.
ive tried drinking
iver tried smoking
ive tried pills- im way to good for the white
ive tried men. in all shapes and sizes, colors and morals.
still nothing-
im tried of lying.
im simply searching for something that cant come about so ive decided to stop trying.
i forgive you both- for not wanting me in.
for taking my signs of anger as craziness, instead of cries for help.
i forgive you for not calling me on thanksgivings and Christmas, i forgive you for not calling on my 21st. I forgive you both for the times when i needed you the most, i forgive you for the times when i asked for ramen because i had nothing to eat- i forgive you for watching me have no where to sleep. i forgive you for not looking at me and seeing me as family i forgive you all. and you all please have a blessedly peaceful life.

craziness is mentioned when my name is called-
this is why i tick and rock like no other female.
for i am an artist - and like all greats- we have problems.
what good is expressing yourself when shit is perfect.
forever hungry- for love.
forever hurting good people because they aren't them.
i pray to forgive, each day i take as it comes...
one at a time.. one at a time...
i can only move into the direction which is right-
no more left turns.

LOVE IT ahahahaaa- how im feelin on FRIDAY at 6;19 pm

1. What was the highlight of your week? when i woke up and felt happy
2. Whose car were you in last? diamond in the backkk
3. When is the next time you will kiss someone? i have no ideal
4. What color shirt are you wearing? blueeee
5. How long is your hair? 9 inches whootwhoot- that loser is making my hair grow. talking badly bout meee smh
6. Are you good looking? i think so. yeaah
7. Last movie you watched? ohhh umm!!!! getting over sarah marshall lol
8. Who were you with? likkle amyaa
9. Last thing you ate?marshmellows shhhh
10. Last thing you drank? black ice tea
11. When was the last time you had your heart broken? wow- three years ago.
12. Who came over last? some dude whos hair i doo
13. Are you happy right now? VERY
14. What did you say last? MANNN
15. Where is your phone? on my bed
16. What color are your eyes? dark brown
(i just couldnt keep clicking the pink sorry guys)
17. Are you left-handed? yes !!
18. Spell your name without vowels:nopeeee
19. Do you have any pets? shes a pit
20. Favorite Vacation? JAMAICA
21. What do you dislike currently? THE DOUBTS
22. What are you listening to? COMMON
23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be? i would have world peace.
24. What is your favorite scent? baby powder
25. Who makes you happiest? GOD
26. What were you doing at midnight last night? on the phone
27. When is your birthday? AUG 13TH OWWWW
28. Who has the same phone as you? this guy who is funny- chinese jamaican..
29. Last time you went swimming in a pool? wowww-- longg agoo
30. Do you read your horoscope? yes
31. Where was the last place you bought something? today when i bought lunch
32. How do you feel about your hair right now? i love it- its soo long and pretty
33. Do you bite your nails? nopeee
34. Do you have any expensive jewelery? yes i do- lol thanks
35. Do you have any expensive jewelery? lol only two pieces
36. Myspace or facebook? facebook
37. How fast have you driven a car? 110 =]
38. Have you ever smoked? yea
39. What was or is your favorite subject in school? history - love the lies lol
40. Do you have Verizon? nooo
41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for? i fall for the odd ball because im soo strange, the guy who has his own mind- who can understand my connection to this world..and my purpose for life. which is love- and feeling pain...which is love.
42. Do you have any hidden talents? i can cook
43. Favorite Song? bob marley- dont rock myyy boat
44. Do you like to sing at all? i love it
45. Dream Job? painting in a studio in the city- just mee and huuge windows everywhere..
and owlong teas- and moon cakes.. yeah im really half chinese you posers!
46. Where does most of your family live? jamaica- and london
47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings? siblings. four- two boys two girls.
48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? noooo
49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up? another day.. soo sad hes doing this to real love- THANK GOD IM ALIVE
50. Do you drink? NO. i dont smoke no moree eitherrr
51. Know any other languages? im picking up chinese this summer =]
52. Ever write a coded message? yess i have lol
53. Have you ever been IN a wedding? nopeee
54. Do you have any children? nopeeeeeeee welllll ummmmmmm ahhhhhhhhhhhh
55. Did you take a nap today? noooooooooo= it was on my mind while studying
56. Who has the same birthday as you? didnt i answer this
57. Ever met anyone famous before? THE LADY WHO SINGS THE ELECTRIC SLIDE
58. Do you want to be famous one day? YES
59. Any Pet Peeves? people who have to much pride to let go and 4give.
60. Are you multitasking right now? yes iam
61. Do you like Britany Spears? LOVE HER- good days bad days- lovee lovee love her
62. What is your least favorite chore? i dont like trash
63. Last place you drove your car? as frenzy says- owwwwwwwwwwww
64. Ever been out of the country? yeaahhh
65. Where were you born? canada, some small islands, jamaica- going to london yeahh
66. Could you handle being in the military? nooo
67. What is your average cell phone bill? 60$
68. Who are you thinking about right now? well- i just got a hair app for tonight..soo the money
69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard? ummmm- always laughing
70. How many pairs of shoes do you own? wow- i think im going strong. cant let it out mann
71. Are your toes always painted? clear
72. How many piercings do you have? four
73. What are you doing today? making money and studying- soo i can make more money
74. Have you ever been gambling? latly with my life- juxx juxx juxx and tokens llmaoo
75. When is the last time you updated your page? what page, this blog. once a year
76. Do you like rollercoasters? nope
77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world? yeahh
78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character? salior moon and hello kitty
79. Last thing you cooked? i cooked fried rice
80. How's the weather? its nicceee
81. Do you e-mail? all the time
82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone? ohh shit i paint it all the timee
83. Last time you were sick? hahahaaa
84. What states have you lived in? GA NYC FL
85. Do you wish you could move? yes i dooo
86. Do you take all the quizzes? nopeeeeeeeeeeee
87. What is your dream car? my dream car is a LS 430 white- blk rims. owww
88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have? nopeeee
89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be? i would be with my daddy like the good old days laughing in his benz- getting money to buy sneakers and get my nails done.
90. Are you happy with your life? VERYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

im not in the mood to speak to anyoneee...
im taking a break from facebook, and aim..maybe even human contact... i dont feel like talking to anybody kind of hurt- yet i cant be sad when im so extremely happy, God has chosen me to be something much much bigger than what iam now! I fully take my responsibilities and act on them now, as i plan for the gift im receiving- im doing it alone. and im not even watching that. you can contact me via email. i will be turning off cell.
i keep getting back to back phone calls when i need my rest. plus i need to really talk to my books, the CNA test in is Jan.

i know people take certain things other ways, but when something as serious as this goes down- and you claim love, this should not be handled like this. and certain words should never be said- nor felt. and if i claim to love you God like, its merciful. pass actions before i woke up and decided to fully live in my conscience mind, nothing should not be held against me.