I'm still sick as hell!!

Bye.

I sit here- and i think, still in my skin. Open in thought, I replay over and over

everything that ever happened. Over and over- what was said and how I let something

get to me- which still meant nothing. Over and over- how I fall and jump into the

unknown.

Only with you- could care less where we would go, as long as there is an

us. It doesn't matter I'm so down- call me after forever and I'm ready to jump back on it-

pick up where we left off, move forward.

Growth.

Than something happens- i think back on the pass.. and feel the pain. open my journal

to rethink this- and i decide its not worth it.

I'm beautiful.

I'm pure.

I'm strong- no longer in need of your direction anymore.

my mind is so much stronger, wiser- expanded so wide. I'm always open for

improvement because there is no such thing as not growing.

knowledge and self love is unlimited.

So i keep my feelings inside-

I wasn't asked for my love to be shared- rebuilt or borrowed.

I've over looked it all- I was way in over my head.

yet i know who you are, and how you are..

Actions speak louder than words- and for this to go down shows boldly whats on your mind.

But for the simple fact nothing was verbally said to me- i will carry on with my future days.

I'll be your someone genuine,

(possessing the claimed or attributed character, quality, or origin; not counterfeit; authentic; real:
free from pretense, affectation, or hypocrisy; sincere: a genuine person.
true, unaffected, open, honest, forthright.)

which is what you've asked for.

I'll be here to help calm your nerves- be your listening ear, and give

my in sight on anything you reflect. See this is love-

Real Love. Pure Love.

So real you let them slip away- carry on with what they are in need of and cast them forever out your brain. Never turn back to or take back simply because of this new found self respect.

One day- when you realize. Your gonna wish you didn't make me turn into this.

The same thing you forced me to fix- will be the same reason you can never return to this-

love this, touch this- do this, hold this- own this.

Never ever again.

BY: Thee OHmy

MIAMI ART BASEL COMING IN DEC!

Someone told me that the art Basel was coming- I completely forgot what December brings! It's like the sneaker pimp for the canvas artist! Every one's art will be featured and up for sale. Art buyers will be dishing out big money for master pieces- and plenty of parties! Parties for the lovers of life. =]

hopefully I'll see you there.

Monday- GIVING THANKS.

It doesn't take a turkey for me to give thanks. This morning I woke up and I felt SICK- my throat, my eyes- everything was hurting. I drank some therma-flue and couldn't work today.. I washed all my bed sheets, opened my windows- than went to lay in the sun. While i was in the sun soaking up energy and GOODNESS- i reflected on everything going on around me. Life is strange- Love is so real. I've never been the type to be self''fish with love- I give it! And the older i get the more i notice these doors opening for me, on every level. I was told last night i fell asleep on the phone- I've never done that before. Like seriously- talk to someone so much that i just pass out! The feelings is so middle school- so innocent. Which made me think back on- when i was searching for LOVE; I had a completely different FACE- a completely different vibe, i was a completely different person. Now that I've been walking correctly- my whole persona changed- the energy i give off, the look in my eyes. I'm a new person- and i give thanks for that. Not Just on the day before black Friday.

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my BAD.

MIND GAP by Thee OHmy

This piece has plenty meaning to me, It took like 7 weeks to make it. I had a psychological evaluation- and I couldn't believe all the foolishness it said. Personally i know there is nothing wrong with me- but that's just what they want you to think. When you see the bigger picture they have to drag you down- to make you think..your CRAZY. When really and truly I'm normal. The cross in the middle shows that GOD is first, and on the side of that says- BLACK IS BEAUTIFUL, and fear no man. A maze showing that the higher hands- what to keep US ALL in loops. A face in the middle that...is crying tears of LOVE.. in a crazy hateful word. That is how i feel sometimes- It hurts so bad to love, love those who treat you bad- and make you feel like nothing. Still showing a side of you that sets you apart from being a girl- a teenager, a female- which makes me a woman.

OH WHAT JOY!!

MY WOMAN MY WOMAN.

OH what joy- greetings beautiful people!!! Welcome to my BLOG!!!!!! Much has been going threw my mind- mostly what ifs, and WHAT THE HELL!! Yes- what the hell... what the hell is going on with our world? Why are we hurting it and killing it- why are my people so blinded to see the bigger picture. THAT LOVE CURES ALL! Why is it that young woman are so quick to just go out and get fucked rather than going to the library- hm enough whys. Blame the music, blame the men- blame the fact that most young black woman grow up hating there own natural self image. Due to the "MAN." Well- not the man the MASSES! of this "EUROPEAN STYLED STANDARDS OF BEAUTY!" you see it everyday- woman with perms, woman with colored contacts, woman who hide there talents- and just sit back and say- hey...I WANNA GET FUCKED- woman who wear weave- 24-7.. who under go plastic surgery...i can go on forever but i wont....It is disgusting to see my beautiful black woman go threw these issues- and not only that. My mixed sisters feel the "heat".. having to fit in on one side, inside of just LOVING BOTH SIDES. Woman feel the need to conform- to be apart of a certain race- when really and truly there is no such thing as race. We are all of the same!!! if you cannot understand what I'm saying....


Please know this- you are beautiful, you are strong. You have the power to be anything you want to be- only you know your out come with your life. It is all up to you and what you think, and what you put out- and what you say. So if we/you STAY POSITIVE AND LOVING- AND HAPPY WITH LIFE. Everything will always come out good- and fall into place. We are only here to simply give this thing called life one shoot- than will live forever with his Greatness. Follow the light- fear no man. And love- love is needed in these dark times. It is all so simple but most are just SO caught up they cant see. Take five minutes out of everyday and just sit still- pray and give thanks.. think about everything..and give thanks to God that you are here.. even write a list each morning of what you are happy for. Hopefully it isn't a list of material things- because material things aren't important at all.

Love is important- it cannot be bought, stolen or able to die.

please remember all of this and give it thought.

As for MEN- AND MUSIC; In order to be treated like a "whore" or just be mistreated at all. It is all due to how you carry yourself- if you say foul words and go out late at night, you will have a man who does the same. If you don't respect your body- and wear clothing that shows all, or hugs to tight.. you will call that into your life. A man who is simply there for your body- Please understand that being a woman- one must dress like a woman and carry herself as a woman. What you DO- is what you call to YOU. If you listen to dumb ass rap music- about shaking your ass, or chop shop-zoom or whatever.. that is just the type of man you will have, and even friends at that. Surround your self with what you want in your life- and you will have it. Yes- it is all SO simple.